Random Autobiography

I was the bottle that popped your day open.
No, you were not allowed to party the night away.
I was your party crasher the day I came into the world.
I was the New Year’s Eve baby of ’89.

I love my family and my friends.
My life wouldn’t be what it is without them.
They keep me standing strong and they love me the way I am.
My father and I are exactly the same, which is a good and bad thing at times.
Dad just doesn’t want to accept the fact that his baby isn’t a baby anymore.
Then there’s my mother.
I’m like her in some ways also.
She is one of my best friends.
I can tell her anything, even if she doesn’t want to know I tell her anyway.
I’m very outspoken.
She had me at 18 and has loved me ever since.

My best friend is Lizzy.
She is my other half, my cheese to my macaroni.
She is part of me and I’m a part of her.
I never thought it possible to have a true 100% best friend.
It took till the 6th grade to find her.
We have a lot of hopes and dreams that we share.
We plan on one day flying to London and plan on meeting some scrawny pale white British boys.
And smoking and drinking a load of tea.
My second best friend is Melissa.
She is my cheerleader.
She and I have had a lot of hard times, but luckily our friendship has been strong enough to hold up during it all. We lift each other up when we feel like giving up.
I am losing her to college though.
She is moving away to Illinois for school.
I am so sad, but so proud of her.
I don’t know what I’m going to do without her.

My life is changing so fast.

It was only yesterday I was a freshman at FTHS.
Now, I'm a freshman in college, and planning and working towards my future.
I have lots of plans for my future.
I want to travel the world: Africa, London, Spain, China, Japan, Ireland, EVERYWHERE!!

I want to change the world and make a difference.
Even, if it is only making one big impact in one person’s life.

My goals at times feel out of reach but I got my guardian angel right by my side to help and protect me.
She can protect me from all things, like from falling into the darkest black holes of sadness or from simply helping me not trip on air.
My guardian angel is with me always. So, that I am not afraid. So I’m never lonely.
She gives me strength and wisdom every day.
At times I get angry with my angel.
I ask her why things happen to me if she is the one suppose to be protecting me.
Why do I lose loved ones?
Why couldn’t I have saved them?
I have come to learn on my own that losing a loved one is the hardest thing one person can go through.
I have been to more funerals then any soul on this earth.
When you lose a loved one it’s like you have been punched in the stomach and you have to concentrate and tell yourself to take a deep breath.
I have seen lives destroyed and put down.
I have seen it.
I have seen hate.
I have seen it
I have seen love.
But I try hard to remember only the loving times.
But life can be a bitch and it makes it really hard sometimes to erase those bad memories of hate.
But, every day I pray that today might be the day the world will change.
This might be the day
I see only LOVE.